Nes - Test 18th Oct.

DebraP · Post by **DebraP** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 7:18 pm

Hi there Nes....finally, finally your time has come

I'm looking forward to adding a BFP

beside your name on Tuesday.

hugs
Debra.

LittleP · Post by **LittleP** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 7:22 pm

Nes

Not long to go - 3 sleeps and then you're there!!

I know it's a long wait, but we're keeping everything crossed for you.

Hugs and Baby Dust.

Little P

NickiMark · Post by **NickiMark** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 8:41 pm

Good Luck dear xx

nes · Post by **nes** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 9:46 pm

Thank you guys!

I've been having a really low day today,

and you three have cheered me up heaps! I hope that I can do you all proud by adding a big

against my name...

Hopefully I can do myself proud by trying to keep focused, and positive... Which is getting very hard at times I can tell you!

NickiMark · Post by **NickiMark** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 9:48 pm

Nes, PMa..... x x

The last 3 days r the hardest, I know... dont u dare give in yet x x

nes · Post by **nes** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 10:00 pm

I'll try not to!
Today I have been finding it really hard.

Yesterday I had these really odd pains in my stomach, and this morning I woke up with them. I had some brownish discharge this morning - which I know is not neccessarily a bad sign, but I've had this dull achey feeling in my stomach all day... The discharge seems to have stopped now, but I'm just starting to feel like it's going to be so hard for me to get to tuesday.

I have resisted doing any tests, but I just can't stop thinking that even though I am trying to stay positive, that maybe it's not good enough... I feel really rubbish today and I am starting to feel a bit nauseous and sicky, if that made any sense??? I still have sore breasts, and keep going to the loo, so I am hoping that things are still ok, but after my miscarriage last time, I don't know if I can take another failure. We had 12 eggs to start with and 10 fertilised, but only two were good enough to transfer - the clinic said the others were not really suitable for freezing, so if we fail this time then I'm going to have to start again from scratch.... I just feel so heavy headed at the mo.

I don't want to see or speak to anyone. I want to curl up into a ball and just sleep - but I can't even do that because my side is hurting and my boobs are massive and are killing me whenever they are squashed...!

What am I like???

Katie12563 · Post by **Katie12563** » Sat Oct 15, 2005 10:03 pm

Here's lots of Baby Dust going your way.
Good luck and I hope your dreams come true on test day.
Love,
Katie

Sand · Post by **Sand** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 4:27 pm

Lots and lots of luck Nes ... We're all waiting for the happy smiley news !

Sandra x

sue e · Post by **sue e** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 4:52 pm

Nes -

Wishing you all the best for your test, hoping your prayers are answered.

take care

Love

sue e xx

bubblymichelle · Post by **bubblymichelle** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 5:26 pm

Just want to say I hope all goes well with your test, rooting for you.
Love
Shell.
xx

leigh · Post by **leigh** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 5:34 pm

Two more days Nes
good luck to you

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Terri2 · Post by **Terri2** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 7:38 pm

good luck! I've got everything crossed for you Nes!!!!!!!!!!

nes · Post by **nes** » Sun Oct 16, 2005 8:23 pm

Thanks you guys!

I am feeling so much better now. The freak out and panicking has now subsided, sort of!!! But I am trying to be more positive. I had a lot of mad thoughts going through my head over the last 24 hours, but I have come to a few conclusions...

No matter how badly I want this, if it's not meant to be, then no amount of hoping or praying will change that decision, so I might as well just keep my fingers crossed and just hope for the best - it's no point me building my hopes up, or convincing myself that we have failed... only time will tell... and my clock is ticking... !

I know that might seem an odd thing to think, but When I was pregnant before, it truly believe that it wasn't my time and considering what we have had to go through this time round, with all of my ops and trauma of IVF, I believe that my little angel was ment to come and show me how I would be feeling when the time was right, and what I should be working towards...

We have been working for so long, and so hard for this that when I started out with my treatment I convinced myself that it would work, and I guess the fact that it didn't go exactly to plan, and that these two weeks have just been so up and down - have shown me that you can't take anything for granted... so I'm just taking things minute by minute and hoping that I have learned the lessons that my babies have been trying to teach me, so at least they decide to stay !!!

only a few hours to go now. I still have resisted the pregnancy tests.... but I am going to get some tomorrow... i'll see how long they last!!!!

Smita · Post by **Smita** » Mon Oct 17, 2005 3:19 am

One more day to get thru for that BFP!!!

GOOD LUCK

smita

LittleP · Post by **LittleP** » Mon Oct 17, 2005 7:40 am

Nes

Hope you still taking care of yourself. Not long to go, just wanted to send you some final PMA and Baby Dust.

Little P

Nes - Test 18th Oct.

Nes - Test 18th Oct.

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