Hi everyone
Not sure if I am starting a new page so I have attached the updated list...
Sorry I haven't been here for a while but things have been really busy. I started my needles on Saturday. Was meant to start with 100 on Gonal F but the clinic gave me the wrong drugs!!! They were meant to give me puregon (spelling?) which actually has 100. So as the Gonal F has 75 and 150 so we started on 112.5 (mid way between on the dial). I am a bit nervous as I have OHSS twice now on 150. I guess it is only 12.5 over. It would have been better if they'd given me the right drugs though - it isn't like we need any additional stress. We just want it to work.
Today is only 5 days and I am already starting to feel bloated. In a weird way I am really glad as it means that it is working. I have my first BT and US on Mon 5th then Wed 7th prior to the EC on Fri 9th. Previously they have brought the EC forward by two days, so fingers crossed that it doesn't happen again. We don't want too many eggs, 12 or so would be good as previously we have had 21 etc. and they weren't the best quality. I seem to have implantation problems and they think it is the embryo quality. Having said that however, our clinic doesn't grade the embie's like other places do.
We are going to try for another blastocyst cycle if we get enough eggs. I think we have decided that if we get more than 8 eggs we'll give it a go.
Sorry I can't write to everyone individually but it has been really busy since I was last on! I am on baby asprin. I am not sure if it works but I bruise like there is no tomorrow. I decided to start taking as I had a positive ANA test (lupus, rheumatoid arthritis etc.) and asprin is meant to help achieve a BFP. We are willing to give anything a go.
Big hello to all the newbies

I have only just joined the site as well and I think it is fantastic.
I am feeling really stressed at the moment. I just want it to work. This will be our 5th fully stim IVF cycle totaling 8 ET's after 6 cycles of clomid. I am starting to think that I must have done something really bad in a previous life. While my DH doesn't blame me and thinks this is a us problem, I can't help but feel guilty. I really hate my body sometimes. I just want to trade all the bad bits in.
We went to a wedding on the weekend and everyone was like "why don't you have kids, you've been married for ages" and "when are you guys going to START thinking about having a family". It really hurts.

We just said it will happen when it happens and that we had two dogs. It is just feels really unfair sometimes. Sometimes we just feel like saying that we can't. I did tell a aunty and uncle and they proceded to tell us to go on a holiday. As if that will help. I have never ovulated naturally!
Like others I have given up alcohol, coffee and most importantly CHOCOLATE! We even have stopped having sex between the ET and BT, which is a killer for me. The last time we had a BFN we ate a couple of blocks of chocolate and drank a couple of bottles of wine. We were really bad... I am back to being 'good' now and hope it all works.
Sorry - I have just had a major explosion. I just feel really low at the moment. I am usually strong, but the number of BFN are really starting to take its toll. We are not going to let infertility beat us. All we can do is keep trying. Not having kids is not an option for us.
Good luck to all of those having a EC next week and also to those who are in the 2ww at the moment.

Hope you are all coping.
PAM - (smokeroni)- Waiting for AF, approx. Nov 25th.
JAG-AF started, first bloods 29th Nov. Waiting for date to start gonal.
KAGOME- Now on puregon, next scan Wed 30th. EC 5th Dec? TBC
MOLLY B- ET 28th Nov 2 embies 2ww test 12th December
RACHEL1- Waiting for AF everyone do a jig!
NickiMark Not this time. Hugs to u.
AMERS OR- 2ww test 3rd Dec
JEN(i Babes)- HPT test 3rd Dec (clinic closed w/ends) 5th Dec Test w clinic
GAIL P- FET 30th Nov Test 14th Dec
NABA- stimming ER 9th Dec test 26 Dec.
JENNIE 71- ET 1st Dec 10am
ALISON- ?
BECP – on 2ww test 6th Dec
DALY – AF due, stim 2nd Dec. ? ER maybe 12th Dec.
Rach on gonal -? ER maybe w/c 5th Dec.
Angela - starts down reggs 16th Dec for first IVF
Dizzie Scan 1st dec. Maybe EC 3rd Dec or 5th Dec.
And a daily calendar
28th Nov Molly B ET
29th Nov JAG bloods
30th Nov Kagome follie scan
Gail P FET
1 dec Jennie (71) ET 10am
2 Dec Daly stims start?
3 Dec Amers test date!!!
Jeni (babes) HPT test date!
Dizzie 35th Bday - maybe EC too!
4 Dec
5 Dec Kagome maybe EC? TBC
Jen(I babes) test date at clinic!!!
Rach maybe ER this week?
Dizzie - maybe EC today
6 Dec BECP test date!!!
7 Dec
8 Dec
9 Dec Naba EC
10 dec
12 Dec Molly B test date!!
Daly ER?
13 dec
14 Dec Gail P test date!!!
15 Dec
16 Dec Angela starts down reggs for first time
17 Dec
18 Dec
19 Dec
20 Dec
21 Dec
22 Dec
23 Dec
24 Dec Christmas Eve!
25 Dec Christmas Day
26 Dec Naba test day (fingers crossed)
27 Dec
28 Dec
29 Dec
30 Dec
31 Dec new years eve!