Morning Ladies,
Someone kick me up the arse for being such a shite cyber sista!
My emotions are all over the place and i find it diffucult at the moment to talk to u ladies. For the simple reason - i dont think my heart is in this anymore
There i've said it!!
I dont know if its because AF is around the corner (she should have been here by now) or if im just down because of this dam cold wearing me out - i really dont know.
So much going on in my head and its effecting my family life - Brian and are at loggerheads every other day cos im beinig a *****

Gemma and i are barley speaking (altho we did hug and make up last night - long may it last) and poor Natasha just avoids me right now!

I know im being a *****, and the more i be a ***** the more i feel gulity about it, but i cant stop myself!! I know that once AF is here, and the FSH tests are done - its full steam ahead, but i dont know if its what i want anymore! Hopefully this will all pan out by the time she arrives and i will be back to my normal self .....
I dont even know if we are going to be here when AF arrives as we are booked to go home to Wales on Saturday, so far there are NO signs of AF arriving, and if she doesnt by Wednesday then the fsh test is out of the question as i have to have it done on day 2. I have no sore (*)(*)'s which i always get at least a week and half before the dreaded, also sore tummy starts about 4 days before - but ive had nothing - just the bloody moods

Oh and the bloated stomach ..... joys of being a woman eh?
I bet u God is a man, theres no way a woman would allow us to go thru this each and every mth for 40 years solid!! So, AF jiggie for me would be great please ladies - by Wednesday if u dont mind!
Carolyn: You really are full steam ahead now

I bet ur so excited. How are u feeling? Hope ur resting up - do u really have to go for blood tests daily? OMG - i dont think i could stick that - is the clinic near u? Do u have to travel far out - that would be such a pain! Im so glad that ur Hyp thingie went so well, that ur all 'clean' (not that i tht u were ever dirty like lol) and ready to receive ur wee embies home. You must be so pleased that everything is being done this time to help u along, and that things are really looking super

xx
Ems Hey there my wee cycle buddie - how the devil are you? Thank you so much for comming by to see how we are doing

xx As u can see from my post - im my usually grumpy old self lol, its great to hear ur doing so well - i do keep my beady eye on u now and again, and look out for ur posts. Please keep us informed, its great to hear from u hun

Do u ever hear from Vicky these days - i do think about her now and agian, i do hope she's doing ok - xxxxx
Rachel: Wow - well done on ur weight loss hun - i am soooo proud of u, i only wish i could stick to it too <Becky stands up and admits to the whole class - she is a CRAP dieter> i just dont have it in me at the moment, ur so good at it, i wish i had ur willpower xxxx
Beachbaby: You get appealing hun - its disgusting the way they are treating u - would u like me to have a word - the way im feeling right now i think they might just agree - arghhhhhhhhh, its not bloody fair!!! If all else fails, as u say u still have ur wee frosties and i hope that ur get ur well deserved BFP with ur wee snowmen or snow women

Good luck and let us know what ur test results are xx
Shantala: Hows the sniffing going? How does it feel to be a fully fledged drug taker again lol

Hope all is going well, and that ur not too busy at work - now is the time to slow down a wee bit, to save ur energy for getting ur wee ones back home safely xxx
Aunty: Is the house nearly finished now? I bet its looking like Miss Ellies ranch lol. Dont forget to email some pics once its ll finished (if u can find ur camera!!) bloody men lol xxxx
Hellooooo to everyone else <Becky *waves*> Hope ur all doing well xxx
So ladies, its down to M.I.L's today for dinner for us - have to make polite conversation and be as jolly as ever...... put on my Sunday best (so to speak lol) will catch u later ladies - dont forget JIGGIE dances for me pleaseeeeeeeeeee ....
Becky Xxxx
P.S - Thanks for letting me rant (not that u had much choice tho lol) Xxx