thank you to everyone for the kind & supportive words. it really means a lot. dh & i think we need to take a little break, for both physical & emotional reasons. we're thinking maybe may/june. i will be out of school the 3rd week of june. it'll be less stessful with not having to take days off & write substitute plans. i'm off for the entire summer, so it'll be a lot easier in that sense. we do have a f/u appointment with dh's urologist next friday. we want to talk to him about a few things, including this lab i found that does sperm dna fragmentation testing. we may do that...it's like a total of $300. then for the time being until we try again, have dh on a strict regimen of vitamins/minerals/certain foods. i read up all of this official info on how a certain diet has been shown to improve sperm dna. basically no toxins, a lot of organic foods, no chemicals, & lots of viatmins/minerals/antioxidants. then we will re-do the sperm dna fragmentation test to see if possibly there will be an improvement.
i'm sad, angry, frustrated, & so many other emotions. but i have to move on....it's not easy, but i have to look ahead & see what we can do. it is definitely easier said than done.
karen- keep up the pma! i hope your dream comes true!
claudia- you're getting closer to being pupo! fingers are crossed that your lining is the thickest ever! i love snow days too...looks like no school for me tomorrow
sonya- looks & sounds as if you're preggo! can't wait to hear of your bfp on friday!
sarah- welcome to the crazy rollercoaster called IVF!
franny- thanks for putting a smile on my face! that story was really cute & funny

lots of luck with your hysteroscopy tomorrow!
hope- wow your er is a lot sooner than what you originally thought! that's great that your ds will be taken care of. how's your mom doing? my prayers are with her...she is a fighter!
ronda- woohoo for the freebie...what a wonderful man your re is! i pray this is for you!
positivethinking- i was actually thinking today that dh & i should do our taxes. we got married this past july, so we're looking forward to a much better return than we got last year individually. yay for starting stims & yes, expect your hormones to not be coorporating, lol. but it's ok
gi- yay for the green light to start stims!
katie- youre so sweet! thank you! the 2ww is enough to make you go insane, but you'll make it through to friday's bfp! i have a good feeling about this. i mean everything that happened, it was meant to be!
miyaya- i love your attitude! i did have my drink on yesterday & the taste of beer was nice. but i'll be honest...a bfp would've been nicer.
j & c- i hope things work out for you....i really do. i will be praying for you.
kim- thank you for the kind words.
tracy- i love your embabies' names...how cute! how goes the bedres?
samantha- thank you. how are you doing? any preggo symptoms yet?
i'm sure i missed some...please know that i'm thinking of all of you & wish everyone nothing but their dreams of bfp's.
love ya,
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